Just a couple of hours...

I started school a couple of weeks ago and I don't wanna toot my own horn but...TOOT TOOT!! I am so cheesy! I have been kicking butt and doing good and I just have to say that I am so proud of myself! But the thing is...

I get absolutely NO sleep!!! This is so incredibly hard and I am surviving on Lo carb Monster energy drinks and coffee. Not both of them together as that would taste awful but you know. The really good thing is I can't find time to eat anymore so I am actually losing weight! If it wasn't for my gigantic milking machines I could almost get extra small scrubs!! Okay so I am still eating but I find that if I eat healthier items that I don't feel AS tired. Plus I am not snacking anymore-who has the time? SO...

I received the most touching email that I have gotten in a while. My dearest friend sent me an email telling me that she was going to do the March of Dimes walk in memory of her dear sweet babies that she lost. She is such a strong and amazing women and I miss her dearly as she is SEVERAL miles away. So in honor of her precious little angels, I will walk here in Cincy. I could never imagine going through what she had to go through and I hate to think that there are families out there that go through it everyday. So as soon as I get all signed up, I will let y'all know, as well as try to hit you up for a donation! But in case somebody has already asked you to donate, please donate all that you can. I know that times are tough right now, but we really need to help all these precious babies that are born prematurley.

Well time to go study. Have a test today and then I have a midterm on Wednesday. I know already right? Crazy! 

Just shake it once.

So the weekend has come and gone. But quite a funny story and SHOCKER...its about one of my kids. 

I was in my room that is kinda caddy corner to our bathroom the other day and I heard Rich take Eddie into the bathroom to...well you know. Just number one though, not number two. So of course there is the standard "Pull your pants down, now your underwear" conversation. And of course my boy does what he is there to do. Then I hear Rich say the weirdest thing. "You only shake it once, anymore than that and your just playing.". Curiosity gets me and I walk in to see my sweet little baby boy...wait for it...STANDING at the potty!!! It was so stinking cute I couldn't believe it! Part of me wanted to run and grab the camera but the other part (I wanna say the sane one?) decided against it. He told Rich that he wanted to stand or in his words "Same same Dada". 

But of course the newness of it all has kicked in and today I walked into him standing there using the potty and scratching his butt. Guess he really wants to do same same as daddy!

The weekend was awesome. Got a lot done around the house and got the cars cleaned out and vacuumed. Just in time though cause as soon as we turned the vacuum cleaner off the storm clouds starting rolling in. Of course I had some girlie time with the ladies for my friend Erin's 30th birthday party. It was so fun. I love my life now, but I sure miss the days!

And now I am just getting ready for school! So excited, I can not wait. Things just keep getting better!

Calgon!

Momma is in some serious need of adult time. This motherhood thing in a mother f-er you know? I love my kids with all my heart but they seriously drove me crazy yesterday. My youngest Luke, is STILL teething and nothing seems to help him. And my oldest Eddie, well he is just being himself. But top that off with a whiny 1 year old and you get one cranky momma! It was one temper tantrum after another yesterday. It seriously took me 3 and a half hours to fold-just fold-two loads of laundry because I had to stop to break up fights and mend broken hearts. 

I remember the days of having just one kid. Things were a lot easier then. Nobody tells you just how hard having a kid is but they really don't give you a heads up for how things change when there are two!! Could you imagine more? I really think Octomom needs her head checked! Yes I brought her up but who in their right mind seriously enjoys every single day of this? I will repeat myself, I love my kids but I will be VERY surprised if I make it to see their 18th birthdays without the use of a straight jacket. 

Okay seriously you all know its not THAT bad, just had a bad day yesterday and today just seems like the repeat of it all. You have your good and you have your bad right? So I am just keeping my eye on the prize...some girl time Saturday night. A friend of mine is turning 30, can you believe we are celebrating 30 years already? Well not me, I still have 3 years but goodness. Bring on the wine and the fun!

Change will do you good.

So you are offically reading the blog of a soon to be college student! I had my last meeting with financial aid yesterday and have everything squared away to start school in a couple of weeks. I have done a lot of research and am thinking that I want to further my career to a surgical technician (scrub tech). But first things first, I must do what I originally planned to.  I am just so excited and scared and nervous. We are getting ready to make a big change just as a family as this will really change up our way of life. Monday through Thursday I won't be home to tuck the boys in to bed. And we won't have a lot of cash flowing around as I have an externship at the end of my training and we have to save for daycare. Its just nerve wrecking as any change would be. But its all for the better for us so its good. 

Eddie sent my blood pressure through the roof last Friday afternoon. We were coming out of Target and being the short attention spanned 2 year old that he is, he doesn't listen very well in the parking lot. So I put him in the basket of the cart as Luke was in the seat part. We got to the car and for some reason I started to put Luke in the cart first. I always put Eddie in first because Luke is strapped down and can't really go anywhere. But that day for some very strange reason I changed it up. Eddie pushed himself away from the car and started rolling away. Fearing that a car would drive out from nowhere and smash into him, I ran after him to stop the cart. The cart stopped, but he didn't and he fell head first onto the pavement. I immediately started to think that he had cracked his head open and must be rushed to the ER stat! The whole 10 minute ride there (thank goodness we were close!) I just kept thinking about the actress Natasha Richardson who just died from a bump on the head. 3 hours and one head xray later, turns out he is perfectly fine and has an extremely hard head (I knew that without the xray!). Unfortunately they don't prescribe any good meds for mothers who just witnessed their toddler take a nasty spill onto concrete.

A preview of whats to come.

So the weather here has been super nice which is a great break from the several blizzards and massive amount of snow we have had. It got up into the 60s yesterday and today its suppose to get up to 72 degrees!!! When the sun woke up, the birds were chirping and the squirrels are all out. Its so strange how a simple change of seasons can affect your mood. 

So as long as everything goes okay with financial aid, I will be attending school April 13th. I have decided to train for a medical assistant. That would be the person who comes in at your docs office and gets all of your vitals, preps you for the doc, and then follows through with the docs orders. I really want to become a nurse but this just seems like the best solution for now. This way I can start working and get back into school with a huge possibility of tuition reimbursement. I will be going to school in the evenings so I don't have to worry about child care. I am really excited, nervous about becoming a working mom but I am sure that this is going to work out for us.

The boys are still amazing me. Eddie is really starting to talk-thank goodness cause I was really starting to get worried! But now he says anything and everything that he hears. Yep time for momma to start watching her language as well! He is also learning his ABC's and his colors. He just loves being a big boy. Luke is really starting to grow now too. At least now when I tell people that he is 1 year old they believe me!

Overall, things are really going great for us. Life is moving in the direction that we want it to. Despite whats going on with the economy, our boys are growing and we are just enjoying everyday with each other. 

Okay sappy hallmark moment over.

Holy sickness!!

Life has been going great. Things were falling into place, the boys are just growing and amazing me each and everyday. Then the shit hits...

Eddie has the rotavirus. Its so awful around here. Luke has a touch of it too so that makes for one heck of a time for momma. This is the first break I have had in days, the boys won't even let me out of their sites. And to top it all off I have gotten a smidgen of all the grossness as well. I can't even count how many loads of laundry I have done, how many puke piles I have cleaned up, or how many muddy diapers I have changed. 

I write all this cause these are the things that nobody warns you about when you are tossing around the idea of having a baby. You never think about how the world just comes to a stop when one or both of the kiddos has an illness. And it breaks my heart everyday to hear Eddie ask me to kiss his belly cause it hurts. Its the most awful thing ever and have broken down into tears many a times. I just start to think how parents who have really sick kids handle it all. 

On a positive note, I finally got my mommy car. I just got a Pacifica which I have been eyeing for a while. Its totally a mommy car and I keep assuring myself that its not a van even though it looks like one and drives like one. Its nice and I love it. Call me a mommy if you want to, that's who I am!

So momma will for sure be having a glass of wine tonight, being that the boys are able to keep things down at this moment. A toast is in order for all the mommies out there and all of our hard work that goes unnoticed. Cheers ladies!

New Year. New Me.

Hope everyone had a safe and happy New Year. I'm not one for making resolutions but this year I decided to do it. I am going to take better care of myself. But I am going to take care of my total self. Mind, body and soul.

I want to lose weight, but more importantly I want to eat better, be wiser about the food I eat and not feel shame when I let myself some ice cream.

I want to learn something. Anything. I want to sit in a classroom and have somebody tell me something that I didn't read on the Internet.

And the number one thing, I want to be in a better state of mind so my husband and my kids get the best of me. I owe them that much. 

Things were crazy and at sometimes a little outta control last year. That kinda craziness has to stop! We all need to learn how to accept the past and try to make a better future. 2009 will be a great year for me and my family, because I am going to make it that way. I am excited about what life has in store for me. Should be fun!